LoversLoveLiarsLie

If your afraid of losing me , then why leave me here alone ? sometimes i dont seem to understand a word your saying. I wished I could tell you this but I am too afraid it may be harsh. Cause hurting your feelings it not what I intend to do. You ought to know , we live totally far apart I told you this before that what your doing totally reminds me of him. That is why I cant keep him out of my head. Everynight I tried to convince myself that your the one for me and that you wont be unfaithful and take the advantage of living apart ,it takes me hours to calm myself down cause there is too much doubts. Whenever I think about you , not your face I see but him . If your feelings had faded atleast tell me . Dont let me belive that you actually do really love me. If breaking up is what you've always wanted , tell me I'll let it happen. If playing with my feelings is what you want , tell me maybe I could let you toy with it. But please , stop this MIA shit your giving to me. I wont belive if you said you were tired. I could also say I was tired , but although me being tired I still sincerely can smile and talk. Its alright if friends is your number one priority , cause its my number one priority too. But I can take the effort to wait sincerely cause I really want to talk to you. And last of all , I miss you alot but missing you these days cause me heartpain, but I am willing to bare it with a smile on my face. If i did wrong , just tell me . Dont just let me be with doubts and everything. This is the only thing that I wish I had for you , I wish I trusted you.

Hello ,

again today Joon made me happy :D last night too. Last night because of stargoldenbell .today pulak because of happy together. SO ,cute and funny :D Its so cute when he said "yeobo yeobo yeobo yeobo" Heeeeeeeeh , melt :P yesterday he did split ! and he carry one woman . Argh , so strong , melt :P

Those who want to know where i edit my photo , I editted it at photoscape , the photo at my profile right to edit it right, you can do it easily . Just greyscale those parts that arent the colors you want. :D In my case , the colors I want are striking colors. So , else then the striking colors I just greyscale everything. It might be abit irritating cause someparts cant be greyscaled or your comp start to get laggy . Just be patient it'll turn out wonderful :D wtf , why am i talking like this ?

anyway , shall talk about today. Idk why I get so restless and well idk dopey when at malaydance. I feel like ugh. Idk why uk. I feel like some thing is bothering me . And its like some destraction. I cant focus. I am trying hard to be serious. I cant find the source of happiness anywhere anymore.

byebye

How I wished you'd always be by my side always but its impossible.