Hello
Its been so long since i onlined and updated this dead blog. Whoever reading this is actually wasting time but its orite. you told me to update but what can I update about ? I've been traumatized , paranoid. I've been in these four walls for way too long. I watched new moon yesterday , I wont say that it was the greatest day ever. Cause I'm not myself lately . Taking pictures , it felt like so wrong at times. Idk if I should even talk about it . So , new moon was okay but my mood was way down twin should know why . Saw wardah at np. Didnt notice her. I dont like to look at my surroundings. If I talk , I'll talk alone halfway. Uhg , I shouldnt have left the house . I wish I just watch new moon today with my second sister. I dont feel like being near anyone who are not related to me. I feel so .. idk. I've never felt this way , I am not like this. I've never stay away from my friends so long. I got so used to it. Noone asking me out , noone calls me , noone msges me , noone talks to me. Its so different from lastyear. I wish I'd knew why am I so .. sad ? brokenhearted ? no , empty . I feel so empty. ^^ otak kosong , hatipun kosong. btol tak? and it surprises me that this feeling happened this year. Alot of boring stuff happened this year. I can even see whats gonna happen nextyear holidays. Oh and I lost my homeworks. ;/ uhg , And whoever misses me . Dont lie ,go and have fun . I am completely used to it okay ?^^ Leave me alone. I know I am a complete person with nothing to share with. I cant show my feelings cause I dont want you to know. But once you know it , what could you possibly do ? If your not contacting me .. Whats the use of having my number. Throw it away. Throw me away. I'll be glad to be thrown away than to be wasted by just waiting for you to text me and ask me out. LEAVING ME ALONE is the best thing I want for X'mas. My present from you , all of you. whoever I regard as friend ,sister ,brother ,whatever. I just need my family at this time cause I realise my friends much off forgotten me. So I rather not have friends for now.

bye
I'll try to keep this blog updated and alive .
and I wont share anysong I'm listening anymore.
I feel like people should know it by themselves.
Yes , being this empty person. I've turned stingy.
Dont ask why , I've been thinking also . No answer.